I didn’t believe in God once upon a time. I thought God was for stupid people. Alas, my favorite two words in the English dictionary as a kid were “stupid” and “idiot.” I sound like a terrible person but I’m actually kind-hearted deep down, somewhere. Most science-geeks think the same about believers, and conservatives in general (some still think they’re all low-IQ “hicks”).
God hasn’t yet shown Himself to me or anything. But I observe what has happened to people who have left God, including myself. In fact, I may have been more “Godly” in my early twenties, naturally, when I was skeptical of being promiscuous. When I was younger, I was conflicted between “saving myself” for “the one,” and losing my virginity, which I was desperate to do. But once I did, I kept it up and eventually, took it on full blast as a “PUA,” shagging more women than I needed to to satisfy my appetite.*
*I took it on “full-blast” after college. When I was in college I still liked the idea of keeping my partner count low. But then, I wanted it to get higher and thought of it as a fun game and a competition. Sadly, many young guys think like this. We need to help them.
This year has been the first in my life where I took Christians seriously.
I used to think Christians were all brainwashed and dogmatic—not worth listening to. Of course, I had no Christian friends. All my friends were like me. We were regular guys who liked working out, talking about girls, and working on our careers and hustling. We were all part of a Godless culture and didn’t even realize our folly.
But this year, I have shown my face to the world. I have put myself out there and expressed my disgust of modern women, especially in Portland, Oregon. By doing so, I attracted Christian fans and viewers. Why would they be interested in listening to a brown-skinned man vent on the internet? I know my content is angry (or at least, it used to be). I know I’ve been pessimistic and negative, despite always educating. But in that space of negativity, Christians saw what I truly believed in. And they aligned with it. After all, Paul the apostle was quite incendiary.
I asked myself why would they align with my views? And that’s when I started talking to my girlfriend, who has taught me most of what I know about Christianity today. I’ve gone to Church with her several times, and once on my own. I’ve met Christians— even on the street, like when I was doing my street interviews in New York City over the summer—and interviewed a few on my podcast (Make Society Great Again). And I’ve found myself nodding my head and saying “yup, yup—we’re on the same page” every single time.
You see, when you disagree with a liberal, you don’t disagree with an individual view of theirs (if you’re a conservative). You disagree with their entire paradigm. This is why feminists find Christian women, like Mrs. Midwest, the Transformed Wife (Lori Alexander), or the sisters from Girl Defined, repulsive. How could it be anything but regressive and “patriarchal” to listen to your husband for Christ’s sake (sorry Christians, I know I just used the Lord’s name in vain but I’m impersonating someone here so please cut me some slack)?
Many of these feminists reach out to me weeks or months after binge-watching my content and send me a positive message. “I was wrong yogi” they say. They connect to their God-given source of life—their femininity—and realize that what I’m saying finally resonates with them because they pulled the feminist weeds out of their minds. And other women who weren’t explicitly feminist but found just a few weeds growing in their minds tell me that I changed their life.* What did I do?
*If you want direct help from me check out my consultations.
I Accepted Nature
And that’s when I realized Christians have a unique view on how nature was created. God made the universe. God designed women to be men’s helpers (Genesis 2: 18; 23). She was created in the image of man. Feminists unfortunately do not want to help men; in fact, they do the opposite. For some reason “smash the patriarchy” isn’t yet considered a form of sexual violence or hate speech. Maybe it’s because only women, even “strong independent” ones, are allowed to be victims.
Modern day feminists therefore, and all feminists, aren’t in tune with their nature. They don’t listen to God. They don’t love God. And they don’t fear God. Instead, they find reasons to be angry and frustrated. There is a big divide between women’s rights and Christianity because some Christians argue that even first wave feminism was unnecessary, whereas others benefit from feminism and don’t mind it. Furthermore, my Muslim Middle Eastern viewers, who are akin to American women in the 1800’s, believe some women’s rights are necessary, but not like in America where it’s gone to the extreme. But what if men treated women in a holy way before feminism? Would women still need “rights” then? Realize that birth control access is considered a “right.” Abortion is considered a “right.” Oh how words get twisted.
Whether you believe in a divine Creator or that evolution through random chance created our universe, we can agree that men and women are different and should have different roles and responsibilities. Women aren’t as good at leading during a war. You’d want a man to be the President in case of a war. The Bible therefore forbids women to be pastors, lest they have authority over men. Only men are allowed to have that authority, since they are leaders, as God intended.
So if we don’t believe in God, then we would naturally question these ideas. Can women be strong and powerful? Can women be the President? Can women excel in mathematics*? These are the questions godless feminists are asking today. But in my opinion, and the reason I do not support feminism, is because the answer to these questions is a definite no. A feminine woman has a mystique, an unrevealing plot and agenda, cloaked in her soft-spoken, sultry demeanor. She doesn’t possess a brazen, pioneering, warrior-like armor. But in her own way, she can be influential, which is today, equivalent to being powerful. But it’s a different kind of power. Mothers are extremely determined; probably the most determined people on the planet and they are definitely powerful, but not like their husbands.
*On average, and despite what CNN says, I don’t think women are as good at math as men.
This is why for women to prove all of the above, they have to become men. And that is just what they do (e.g., Elizabeth Holmes fake deep voice). Therefore, all they prove is that men and women are indeed different. Surely, if men behaved more like women, they could try to prove the genders are equal, but by not being themselves, they would actually prove the opposite.
Of course, with affirmative action forcibly bringing women to the workplace against their free will, women are becoming leaders of powerful nations. Some may remain feminine, and they may be able to lead people with their unique feminine energy, but she will need the direction of a “man” in her mind to succeed. And this requires significant training and overcoming of feminine obstacles. Only a mature woman with a lot of experience can do this. One might argue that only a mature man with a lot of experience can lead as well. And that perhaps if women were given the chance to lead, they could do it as well as men. But I don’t think so because I’d rather listen to a man as a leader and simply don’t take women as seriously because of their physical appearance and their voice. I have met women though who are amazing leaders. But their vibe is just different and not as compelling to a man.
As women have told me, if given the choice they’d rather not work. I don’t think the same is true of men on average because they’re hardwired to be providers (and that’s a good thing, not a sexist, misogynistic or oppressive idea).
Since Christians acknowledge obvious facts about gender, I started to question my beliefs.
I noticed there was a pattern of thinking among atheists, Christians and feminists. It wasn’t just one thought they had that was different than mine, but the whole package. For years, I noticed that atheists had a very strong belief system. They were staunchly pro-science, but not pro-investigation, or the scientific method. They didn’t believe in prayer healing or even herbal medicines. They only like pharmaceutical medications and blindly put faith in the theory of evolution.
But as I questioned my beliefs on evolution, I started to confront a reality I had ignored since high school biology class. If we came from lower hominid species, that means that once upon a time, the first humans had parents that were not human. I always wondered how this was possible but accepted evolution anyway, trusting that the theory was based on solid evidence. But it’s not possible from my understanding of genetics, unless the parents of the first humans were only part hominid but mostly human already. From my understanding, there were distinct and separate hominid species that existed before us. Either there is a spectrum of hominids or there are distinct species and we cannot jump from one to the next.
Therefore, it’s just as likely to me now that humans were plopped into the center of the Earth by an alien, or perhaps… GOD!
But what about artifacts that are hundreds of thousands of years old? I’m not sure how carbon-dating and the techniques used to figure that out work, so I don’t know. But do you? Do you blindly believe that? Do we know for sure that these artifacts are millions of years old? And what about dinosaurs? If they existed, they must be much older than this Earth right? Christians believe that the Earth is less than 10,000 years old.
I’m not sure yet about Creationism, but I’m also not sure about evolution. And I’d rather side with people that believe abortion is murder, that birth control is harmful, that the patriarchy isn’t harmful, that toxic masculinity is a social construct, that misogyny isn’t real (it’s just an insult leveled at anyone feminazi’s think is sexist and all Christian women are by default “misogynists” if they believe in gender roles), that men can’t get pregnant, that transgender people need to get their autism and other mental health issues treated, that homosexuality isn’t normal, that promiscuity is dangerous, that women should remain chaste before marriage, that gender roles are natural, and women should behave.
None of this means I should become Christian. But it means that it’s the atheists that are crazy, and the Christians that are the sane ones.
What Going to Church Has Been Like
I’ve attended church several times this year. I’ve gone to church in Sweden and in New York. I highlighted some of that in my Gothenberg vlog.
My first day at a Church was a bit odd. I was very skeptical. I went with my girlfriend (a Christian) and wasn’t sure yet if a future relationship with a Christian woman would work out, even though this woman seemed like my soulmate already. I wasn’t sure if i could get behind Christianity and all the God-fearing and God-loving. How could I be with her and plan to have kids yet be skeptical about God?
I was standing in the middle row, when the guy on stage, a happy Asian man, said: “OK everybody! Turn to your neighbor and tell them how good looking they are!” I was with my girlfriend and am glad she was asocial because I wouldn’t allow her to say such a thing to anyone, or anyone to say such a thing to her, unless I’m not there and have no control of it, in which case, I’m glad she would receive the compliment because what makes her happy makes me happy.
OK, I jest a little and I don’t intend to take this exercise so seriously. It can be a lighthearted compliment for sure. But still, I thought it was odd. I turned to my neighbor who turned to me first and shook his hand. Then I didn’t say much and seemed unfriendly. I tend to be standoffish in person.
Then, the Asian dude started reading prayers from previous weeks that were getting answered. “Wow, this is like a self-help conference!” I thought to myself, impressed. I liked praying already. I used to pray to the “universe” which I probably got from New Agers. The idea is that the universe can give us what we want if we ask for it and work towards it. Things just “align” and “manifest” and all that.
Then he read prayers for this week, and I thought it was really cool to listen to your prayer being read out loud. I donated a few coins I had in the hat that was going around, right before the pastor went on stage.
This Pastor Was Incredible
From Las Vegas, this pastor was chill and “dope af”. He recommended we take notes via the notes app, and proceeded to give a lecture titled “Holy Spirit Perspective.” I had a feeling it would be moving and that I might be brought to tears—I don’t know why. And I almost did cry at one point. Certainly, my eyes watered—I was incredibly moved. Yeah yeah, I know. It’s his job to be good. I knew that the ideas he shared could benefit anyone. And that this could have been a Tony Robbins conference perhaps, but one focused on God.
I took so many notes, and since I was more and more open minded about Christianity from talking to my girlfriend, I didn’t mind the stuff about God, even though last year, I would think it was straight up cringe. “The holy spirit/God is hovering above everything. And you can walk with a supernatural ability given by Jesus Christ in the heavens” he said. I like that, even though it’s a bit grandiose.
Something he said which strongly resonated with me was this:
“A cup may be half full or half empty, depending on your perspective. The cup just is. If you grew up with faith and positivity then you will see the world that way. If you grew up with stress you will see the world more negatively.”
I grew up with some serious negativity. My parents fought a lot and I fought with them a lot. I didn’t think they could ever understand me. But I was pretty positive until recently, when I started discovering MGTOW and maybe from living in Portland, Oregon for too long. So I thought about this because I didn’t want to be too negative.
Another thing he said was “people say do do do do do, whereas Jesus says done done done done done. It doesn’t matter what it looks like in the middle because God knows what it looks like in the end. No matter what I’m going through… God is above.”
Temporary pain and discouragement cannot thwart God’s plan.
The pastor explained how his father was in a gang and abandoned his mom. “What people say abandoned I call protected—Holy Spirit perspective” he said.
I’m down with that.
Other events I went to weren’t as compelling speaking wise. But I appreciated the Godliness in everyone there and in the music and speakers. And each event made me think, which is what counts. Worship music is a big part of many modern day Church events, and the audiovisual performances are pretty incredible. They play live music and sing Godly songs which you can sing along to by reading the words on a projected screen. Most of the places I went to had Swedish music (with some English songs) but I still occasionally found myself trying to sing the words. It sounded beautiful and holy… it’s hard to describe. But seeing how joyous it made people to sing this Godly music, it made me happy to be there.
There are no downsides to having faith. There are many downsides to not having faith (OK this is debatable). Therefore, I am compelled with the Christian argument to why things are the way they are today and what we need to do to make society great again. Even though I am not certain yet that God exists, I believe he is guiding me throughout life and always has. Even if I don’t believe in God 100% and don’t know if Jesus is my lord and savior, I can at least use God as a model to discuss life decisions, choices and my thoughts. And that’s precisely what I’ve been doing. It takes daily practice to follow God, but doing so can guide anyone out from darkness. And there is a lot of darkness in the modern world today.